Background information: I had a baby with a guy who ended up being a heroin addict, and who also thought he was a vampire. I haven’t talked to him since I was four months pregnant. Our daughter is now 21 months old. I write and produce independent films. I am having trouble finding a job I like, and have been through a few jobs this year. I am currently not working. I am a recovering bulimic, and have a social anxiety disorder for which I’ve been taking Zoloft and Paxil since last October.
I had a strange dream that my current boyfriend and I were sitting at one of our regular hangouts and just talking. He brought up something about leaving because he wanted a baby and I couldn’t do that yet (because of bulimia). I became really angry and just kind of lost it.
I dreamed that I woke up and I was strapped down to a bed in a hospital and couldn’t get up no matter how hard I tried. My boyfriend came in the room and told me that I had tried to kill myself and he had stopped me and called for help and that I would have to stay in that place for a while. Then he told me that this might straighten me out to where I can have his baby, so he’s the one that signed for them to keep me. He left the room and I started screaming and struggling with the straps. I woke up then and haven’t been able to get that out of my head since!! Should I be concerned?
—Sheila, age 22, dating seriously, Louisville, KY